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One of the companies I purchase my ostomysupplies from has a great motto.  Ostomy supplies motto is, “less doubt more confidence”.  This is a motto I wish I would have known about when I had my ostomy.  I am a pretty closely held person and keep to myself.  Being confident has always been a struggle for me and now that I was carrying around my own waste on my side, it was flat out depressing. Now I know that is really isn’t a big deal at all and lots of people have so many more complications than I do.  I honestly feel blessed, but I sure didn’t when it started.   I was afraid. Afraid like going to give a speech in front of a thousand people with no warning kind of afraid. The kind of crippling fear that makes you want to shut down and never leave again.  

My throat would close up and my breathing would get ragged. Honestly, panic attacks were probably happening and I didnt even know it. My right eye even started a twitch and then I knew something was wrong.  I was literally killing myself with fear. Walking out the door felt like I was subjecting myself to the possibility of imminent embarrassment.  I knew that something would go wrong and I would be made fun of for my bag. I knew that even worse I would be given sympathy over what I would carry around. I told myself it wouldn't happen if I just staid home.

This was all wrong. I was all wrong. Yes, I was young, but I don’t want anyone else to feel that way and not know that its all for nothing.  I waisted many years in pain and fear because I was afraid of rejection or being different.  The point is I thought I was different and it sucked all my confidence out.  In reality no one is perfect and the fact that I simply have an extra step for my waist is honestly not a big deal.  I made it a big deal and I made it something to fear.  In reality its not and was never a big deal.  Yes, its a few extra steps to my daily routine and I have to take a few more precautions but now I dress normal and feel normal.  I have products I count on ConvaTec Ostomy Supplies is a brand that not only had a good motto, but a product that backs it up.  The free samples are also nice.  Everyone has preferences and its great to try to find the best product just for me. So be calm, be confident, you are normal so go live.